DI LANG IKAW by Juris

 (pa-like ako nito sa fb ah)
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Pansin mo ba ang pagbabago
Di matitigan ang iyong mga mata
Tila hindi na nananabik
Sa ‘yong yakap at halik
Sana’y malaman mo
Hindi sinasadya
Kung ang nais ko ay maging malaya

Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nahihirapan
Damdamin ko rin ay naguguluhan
Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nababahala
Bulong ng isip, ‘wag kang pakawalan
Ngunit puso ko ay kailangan kang iwan

Pansin mo ba ang nararamdaman
Di na tayo magkaintindihan
Tila hindi na maibabalik
Tamis ng yakap at halik
Maaring tama ka
Lumalamig ang pagsinta
Sana’y malaman mong ‘di ko sinasadya

Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nahihirapan
Damdamin ko rin ay naguguluhan
Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nababahala
Bulong ng isip, ‘wag kang pakawalan
Ngunit puso ko ay kailangan kang iwan

BRIDGE:
Di hahayaang habang buhay kang saktan
Di sasayangin ang iyong panahon
Ikaw ay magiging masaya
Sa yakap at sa piling ng iba
Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nahihirapan
Damdamin ko rin ay naguguluhan
Di lang ikaw
Di lang ikaw ang nababahala
Bulong ng isip, ‘wag kang pakawalan
Ngunit puso ko ay kailangan kang iwan
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Comment ko:

Sus. yun lang pala gusto niyang sabihin eh. Ok. Sorry for all. I guess (as in I guess lng malay ko ba kung ano na nasa isip niya) i guess ito yung gusto niyang sabihin. Ok. NAINTINDIHAN KO NA. Hindi ako galet. i don't wanna conclude pero sige THE SPACE IS ALL HIS na. Just be happy na lang. Stay free... again HE IS FREE.

sorry but i have to say this :|

this might be so emotional, but please bear with me people. some words are not suited for some readers. guidance is advised.

Life is fair, indeed. But, it is full of unfair people.
I'm sorry but I admit I'm one of those unfair ones. Why? (let me reflect)


1) I still spend some of my energy to 'that person' when I still have a lot of responsibilities in life to meet.

I keep myself busy with things to do but every time I pause I still think of him.

• visiting his page, liking & commenting some posts in his fb wall
• crying over him when he has hurt me
• thinking about him at least 20 times a day & wondering what he's doing
• waiting for a time or moment to chat with him & knowing he's whereabouts and what-abouts
• forcing him to reveal something confidential when he is really not willing to share it so (just last night)
• being crazy about him when i really have to trust God for His Will
• asking people what's with him like letting those people see that I'm so damn crazy (sorry for the words)
• stealing time to open his mail & rarely his fb account when it should be privately for him (I'm so insane omg!)

2) I always get angry to my dad & mom whenever they give signs that they don't want 'that person.'

Like they always mention I should marry someone who has good credentials in short they like GDC but I keep on strongly disagreeing about it because i like 'that person.' Well, I just realized they're indeed just right for guiding me. My dad has always been supportive & protective because he does not want my future to get lost just because of a wrong partner in life. My parents are right. Somehow, I realized how they loved me so much. My mom always gives me a compliment that "matalino ka nga anak..." but "tanga ka sa pag-ibig." She points out that my weakness is my heart though I have the 'brains'.

3)  I'm unfair because I want 'that person' to be mine when it's really making me selfish & demanding.

I'm getting envious & jealous whenever i see something in his fb wall that will trigger my anger & bitterness.
I always want me, myself & I for him. (How selfish I am!)

You know, I'm giving my love without a righteous cause to 'that person'. Frankly, I see myself as a mentally unsound person wasting my time, energy, effort to 'him' when the Lord wants me to trust in His own plan for me. I always expect something from 'that person' that someday he'll love me for what & who I am where he really can't choose to. And I still allow 'him' to make me believe with what he call 'his cock-&-bull stories' (lies). I still give chance even if he has 'unreasonable' faults. (ayan tanga na ako di ba?) I still pretend that I am 'his' & 'he' is mine. (how yucky for you guys right?)

So, tell me what should I do. Feel free to comment before I lose my pride & self-esteem being crazy for 'the undeserving.'

Quotes to Ponder: June 07, 2010

• What's meant to be will always find a way.♥ (pero kung puro kalokohan at kasinungalingan lng, wag na lang hahaha)
• Have a heart that never hardens, a temper that never tires, a touch that never hurts. - Charles Dickens (gudlak na lang!)
• They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel. - Carl W. Buechner (TAMA!!! kaya tamaan ka!)
• The man who does not read good books has no advantage over the man who cannot read them. - Mark Twain (ok)
• Real generosity is doing something nice for someone who will never find out. - Frank A. Clark (up until now I've never found it out. you mean, he's real generous???? Whatever!)
• Don't judge the book by it's cover. (TAMA!!!because he is NOT A BOOK! hahahahahahaha!)
• Nothing good ever comes out when you flirt with unfaithfulness. (korek check!)
• Change is the only permanent thing in this world. (oo nga alam ko. kaya nga sabi niya eh, "nagbago na ako," "people change" sabay OFFLINE sa chatroom leaving me HANGING!!!